Amira Balqis.
Actually that was not the name me and abah had in mind before you were born. The name had just like popped in my head all of a sudden- thank you Allah -. Abah being sweet abah, just went along with me, and anyway that was such a great name for such a great and wonderful gift from God. *hamdan lillah*
I had to admit that I was very very lucky indeed during my labour with you. Allah had indeed made it easy for me. Thank you all for the prayers made for us.
Just to share it with you, my dear 'yaya' - a nickname she called herself, a story on your birth:
As it was nearing the due date, check ups with the gynae were scheduled weekly. On a particular Monday check up, Dr. Heng dropped us a bombshell! Said something like "Oh, we should deliver the baby tomorrow" in such a oh-so-casual-let's go shopping tomorrow! manner.
I was utterly speechless and shocked! WHAT?! TOMORROW?! Though I know the due date was just round the corner, but getting to the fact and reality that I will be giving birth that soon was really FRIGHTENING! Her reason was, baby in tummy was not growing so she would have to induce me. By that time, I was already dilated by 2cm. That was about a week before edd.
So home I went and to work abah went. Abah being an-overly-anxious abah, started to find out whatever he could on inducing. He was really worried and was half-hearted with that decision, saying he would pefer it to be normal. I would like that too - anything to delay it!
But it so happened that, that night I was down with a high fever! I would usually get a high fever when I had a shock over something. So we called up the 24hrs help service to find out what we should do- a very superb servive indeed! Dr. Heng advised to admit me into the hospital.
It was already past midnight if I'm not wrong, so we took a cab to East Shore. Upon admission, I was given paracatemol and it relieved the fever. As we opted for a two-bedded room, Abah couldnt stay. That was my first time ever sleeping in a hospital! and it was ALONE! At that time, my mind still hadnt register that I will be giving birth later that day. Still being in denial.
Come morning, everything still seems so safe and comfortable. Abah came, had a nice breakfast - one the good things at East Shore- mum (nenek) came along too. But by 10am, a nurse came in and its INDUCE time! After being injected -which still freaks me out, needles poking through your skin into your flesh, OUCH!! I am certainly not born to be a nurse!- I was wheeled, insisted by the nurse though I feel perfectly fine, to the labour room. The chief nurse came in and burst the water bag. That is when the pain started to kick in. It was painful but funny thing is I dont really remember how the pain really felt like if anybody were to ask me now. I guess that's why women do not just stop at one, after a while you no longer remember how the pain felt - but ask any who had just given birth, they will surely say they had enough! But one thing for sure is, the contractions were much much more painful than the delivery itself. I truly salute those women who were really strong in enduring a long labour, especially those insisting on NO to epidurals.
I do remember the nurse asking me to rate the pain out of ten at that moment. I said it was about 6 (if Im not wrong) and she said, well good luck then because it will be long -need to be dilated till 10cm and generally it will take an hour for a cm but usually the time varies - and it will definitely be much more painful. Hmmm, thanks so much for the words of comfort.
They did explain that being relaxed will help to ease the pain a little. There were three options for me to choose from, use the oxygen, a jab in the thigh ( I am not sure of the name) and last but not least Epidural. I was determined NOT to take the last option. I did use the oxygen, after 2 hrs, I asked for the jab, and alhamdulillah few minutes later I was ready for delivery -I felt that I just had the urge to push, involuntarily-. ( I do not think I could hold on to my determination -not taking the epidural- any longer if its going to be another 8 hrs more!) So my labour pain was only about 3 hours total.
By that time, I was feeling kind of, hmmm how do I put it, high? I think thats the effect of the oxygen. I felt really drowsy, and just wanted to close my eyes and sleep. I remembered being confused, like not knowing where I really was. It felt annoying that Abah and everybody around me kept asking to push. The first time I pushed and stop for breath, not good. Next I pushed real hard, until I was literally out of breath (you really have to give a one big push, coz the baby will slip back in if you push and stop), and it felt like the whole content of my tummy slid out. It was quite a relief! (But not so much of a relief when I look down at my tummy which is alike a deflated balloon..sobsob).
And...there you are! A whopping 3.78kg! Managed to fool the doctor eh...not growing, ya right!
There are no words that can justify the feeling I had the moment you were put on me. So innocent, still quite blue and it was so LOVE at first sight.
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| Just being washed and she's looking up at me! |
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